Can I call yesterday my day of hell !
Yes but only partly… hell was mostly at the end of the day. I had a pretty good day after all, my first day back at work after a week and a half of paid vacation. Work was good; I cannot complain I am the only one on my team here so I cannot fight with myself. I constantly have these little dialogues with myself but no fights.
Got my promotion on Christmas day ! Yeah… Happy dance.
Finally gave the first sweater to my friend yesterday, working hard on finishing the second one before my class begins next Tuesday. Helene really liked the sweater, while I am scratching my head, trying to figure out if she is making fun of me, trying not to hurt my feelings because the sweater is really horrendous and she doesn’t want to tell me. I liked the buttons because they reminded me food (smarties). This morning she tells me her boyfriend likes the sweater too. WOW. Well I am happy.
Yes but only partly… hell was mostly at the end of the day. I had a pretty good day after all, my first day back at work after a week and a half of paid vacation. Work was good; I cannot complain I am the only one on my team here so I cannot fight with myself. I constantly have these little dialogues with myself but no fights.
Got my promotion on Christmas day ! Yeah… Happy dance.
Finally gave the first sweater to my friend yesterday, working hard on finishing the second one before my class begins next Tuesday. Helene really liked the sweater, while I am scratching my head, trying to figure out if she is making fun of me, trying not to hurt my feelings because the sweater is really horrendous and she doesn’t want to tell me. I liked the buttons because they reminded me food (smarties). This morning she tells me her boyfriend likes the sweater too. WOW. Well I am happy.
Needless to say I will be knitting my ass off. Here is a picture of the back. It’s the Robin Hood Cable Sweater by Zoe Mellor (Adorable Knits for Tots). Here is my picture of it and I am pretty proud of it.
I did make resolutions for the New Year and they are very simple.
• Make myself happy, think of me, take care of me, global happiness for me.
• Take care of my finances.
• Be organized.
• I also want to stop worrying about what everyone else thinks about me or about the stuff I do.
• I want to assume who I am, love who I am and stop having doubts.
If I am happy, my kids will be happy and my world will be better. I started by getting myself some hair care products, cream for my body (kept putting it off for something else) with which I used yesterday with great joy. I also took off my make up Woo Woo something I do not usually do. I also started to wear make up every day, I value myself and I have to show it. This is the year of the pig and I am one, take it all in. This will be my year…
After I left work is where it started to go crazy. A woman started to scream at me at a red light saying I had cut her off. Cut her off, I did not and I really felt like telling her to fuck off. But I held back and the light changed. I was sure I did not cut her off and then it happened, I doubted myself. Damn it, my resolution is tested and I kept thinking of her and wondering if I did indeed cut her off. No I did not, but it bothered me for a while. Grrr I am kinda of angry with myself for letting it get to me. I was in a good mood before that and after I became perplexed and wondering what she must have been thinking of me (I worry about what a stranger thinks of me, I need help people).
Did a little shopping (mainly cat food), paid the rent and finally sat down to knit. I should have cleaned the dishes but I got lazy. Wanted to update my blog but my computer decided otherwise. So I knitted, undid the sleeve and started it again. I want this one to look perfect.
I got sick last night (read I kissed the toilet bowl), Could it be the food ? It’s the first time I am sick since the divorce, I am alone, pucking my guts out and no one is there, not even my cat. I wanted to cry for a split second and then I remembered I am a grown up and I can make it on my own. Think better of yourself. Went back to bed and wished really hard to fall back into the arms of “Morphee” once again.
I woke up really feeling crappy, put make up on, drove myself to work and I am feeling ok now.
Maybe today will end on a positive note.
• Make myself happy, think of me, take care of me, global happiness for me.
• Take care of my finances.
• Be organized.
• I also want to stop worrying about what everyone else thinks about me or about the stuff I do.
• I want to assume who I am, love who I am and stop having doubts.
If I am happy, my kids will be happy and my world will be better. I started by getting myself some hair care products, cream for my body (kept putting it off for something else) with which I used yesterday with great joy. I also took off my make up Woo Woo something I do not usually do. I also started to wear make up every day, I value myself and I have to show it. This is the year of the pig and I am one, take it all in. This will be my year…
After I left work is where it started to go crazy. A woman started to scream at me at a red light saying I had cut her off. Cut her off, I did not and I really felt like telling her to fuck off. But I held back and the light changed. I was sure I did not cut her off and then it happened, I doubted myself. Damn it, my resolution is tested and I kept thinking of her and wondering if I did indeed cut her off. No I did not, but it bothered me for a while. Grrr I am kinda of angry with myself for letting it get to me. I was in a good mood before that and after I became perplexed and wondering what she must have been thinking of me (I worry about what a stranger thinks of me, I need help people).
Did a little shopping (mainly cat food), paid the rent and finally sat down to knit. I should have cleaned the dishes but I got lazy. Wanted to update my blog but my computer decided otherwise. So I knitted, undid the sleeve and started it again. I want this one to look perfect.
I got sick last night (read I kissed the toilet bowl), Could it be the food ? It’s the first time I am sick since the divorce, I am alone, pucking my guts out and no one is there, not even my cat. I wanted to cry for a split second and then I remembered I am a grown up and I can make it on my own. Think better of yourself. Went back to bed and wished really hard to fall back into the arms of “Morphee” once again.
I woke up really feeling crappy, put make up on, drove myself to work and I am feeling ok now.
Maybe today will end on a positive note.
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